HAHA nothing to update lah.
hmm? Happy Man U won again? haha dunno wat to sae also like now everydae just trying to jian chi dao di w my notes.
Wonder how was Scream that nite. hmm..
i dun consider this an update. content like no content. haha. sorry lah cant force me to sae things when i am stuck at my stone mood?
my mum spent like dunno almost 5 days gg ard to buy clothes for a wedding. i wonder how long i will take to buy my prom one? haha.
Gum 10/29/2006 07:22:00 pm
EEEWW. i knew it was gg to happen. HAHA. and i fell for it knowing the consequences.
the moment i decided to click on the first link called Brendan i knew my morning was gone and i was right of cos. Links linking to links linking links linked to linking links.
And AGAIN, the weird feeling is up. wats wrong w me? i cant explain. but im qt sure i will not do so again in the near future, or my A lvls are screwed. Shit i dunno wats wrong w me.
thinking thinking thinking. tiring my brain cells on things that arent impt at this moment.
i just feel like talking. talking to NICE ppl. haven been out of the hse since a long time. last nite was die-die-ing i felt out of breath so gave up my notes for my bed at like 11 wth. but st cldnt realli sleep arghs.
i dreamt of mani things last nite. mostly sch though. i rmbr dreaming of dhs in the old classroom w ppl out of place like some actress there too. another moment i was in the sch audi and gg thru some bio paper and asking mrs cheng some qn and suddenli talking abt some GM tube and saying " ask Mr remedios lah". den was at Hwa chong open hse out of a sudden and even my dhs fren from sec 2 appeared and helped to do some stuff. a huge banner in the central plaza cld change colour and move and mr rem was there hitting it like a gong w some juniors running abt. and used some rope to connect to someones comm and the tchr saes sorry for not understding wats wrong w the cables.
and i dreamt of someone too that i felt i miss seeing and talking to her so much in the morn i woke up w a "suppressed" feeling like pressures building on me. hmm.. i alwaes tot i wld feel like this for Selenium but i guess i was just trying to force myself to rmbr those daes. when i have alr let go, it seems like something different comes out of it.
Gum 10/25/2006 12:04:00 pm
Wish there could be a Giant Enzyme, bringing us into close proximity.
Gum 10/24/2006 11:45:00 am
haha i realli wanted to blog some time last week but that time blogger was like laggin or down mabbe so i gave up waiting. hmm. miss that tone in my head. miss being a caring person.
hey guys no more faking k? walao use your own names, REAL names, lah. i know its you. yeah i know u will be readin this too so i sincerely hope you would stop using liwens name or others names! k? pls pls. its rather disturbing to me :( im sure u dun like ppl to lie too, dont you? thx lots i'm sure u will know wat to do now!
kk actualli also nothing much to sae. mugging velocity is slow. deceleration sia.
lately also nothing much to blog abt. at least for now. oh yah man u won!!!! haha. great man! the ferdinand goal was like siao. dam strong lah. haha the first touch seemed so disappointing it looked like it can be easily cleared by liverpool liao. somemore its ferdinand wat wld u expect? not a lot lah. budden wah, there was some space for him to put the ball to his left and VOOOOOM goal. amazing! haha. better den wayne rooney now. yux when will rooney ever score again lah.
now i truely understd that soccer is so hot in thw world becos there is controversy. haha just read that wenger is pushing to use tech to solve those probs out there like his dear henry's disallowed goal in the UCL, but i think all those mistakes referees make is wat the games abt? thats wat makes soccer so fun to follow. its like u can talk abt one incident for one week. mabbe not onli the controversial decisions referees make, but like those incidents on the pitch among the players.
its rather a reflection of wat reality is sometimes. like when u make just one mistake and den go on a run of a few poor games, ppl will boo you off liao. they dun give you a lot of chances do they? mabbe they should bring the yellow ribbon project to England and let the ppl know how impt it is to give ppl second chances.
veri sad. ppl mostly rmbr u for the mistakes u make, unless u are some great all time favourite in some rich club.
so now, shev scores. score again? i wld think so, but not as hot as drogba im sure. that guy is on form now. but talk to me abt epl, and i still have angel in my head. not the one who blesses you, but the guy who misses a penalty and scores an amazing own goal. thats qt incredible isnt it?
kk those who read my blog arent soccer fanatics at all so this must have either (1) bored you off, or (2) been entirely skipped.
ok my tots are so random now. just lookin forward to FAN2 abt somemore things.
Gum 10/23/2006 11:53:00 am
I love my daughter!!! haha. thx so much yawen for trying to sae theres something btwn us NOPE, its not what u think. Father and daughter DO NOT fall in love w one another, they just love each other as a family k.
Thx sooo much for the company and dances! even though you hit me i dun mind lah, im such a great dad (bhb)
YEAH. her results so good. unlike mine now :( haha still complain complain in the end get so good grades! im sure she will do well in her studies im not worried!!
anw yesterdae i joined the 33rd at Open House work session for a while tgt w haining! so SSHIIIOOOOOK! haha v long nv do council work liao so nice to feel backaches and thinkin of how nice and tiring and fun it was for me last yr! hais.. dam fun!
so the WS yest made me weird AGAIN and in no mood to study. whole dae think of council! actualli i also dun understd my heart lah its so lame and unpredictable. but i feel blessed to have such a heart. haha i enjoy it! not even involved in it i was excited at the feeling of arrival of council events i just so look forward to them that i heck abt other stuff. O.o
Todae also spent practicalli the whole dae slacking totalli. first half of the dae just slacked ard in sch walk walk here see see there talk talk here hi hi there. i felt qt sad though that the mood was qt lousi and the crowd rather small:( the CCA benches also not veri liveli like sian diao liddat. i think onli mass dance then the sch got life. HAHA the weather so HOT lah i dance until set on you whole mouth dry like siao liao. no energy alr when wild wild west. Ying4 Cheng1 onli. den later i planted myself at the canteen w my daughter and lion and terence mainly. so sad not enough goodie bags! hais... cant take goodie bag even the tour guides, tchrs n councillors cant get one like we did last yr. last yr was totalli over got so so so mani left.
And i managed to bring ONE girl ard the sch! haha. sian diao waiting for the guide so long i just went and brought her ard for a little while. a dsa girl lah she wanted to go LT3 so i showed her ard. Wah not bad did something useful at last and managed to sustain the conversation.
this yr counccil no sell ice cream and pizza! haha last year veri fun sellin pizza for a whole dae. nothing else big but pizza! thx the fun ppl brendan paul and of cos auntie mindy for giving me such a funni OH2005. i still rmbr mindy's shoelaces kept falling loose and me tellin her that according to an italian story it means you'll get married soon. O.o Oh well. so lame HAHA but she nearli believed. OKAY i still cant figure out why i rmbr such lame stuff. if u are someone i talk to i think u will know i rmbr lame stuff like these -_-'' random stuff i confirm rmbr. studies? not realli. i can even forget my Bernoulli eqn during Prelims WAT A JOKE?
haha i go so off tangent that i dunno wat i was gg to type liao. hmm...
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Anw im glad i am fine alr.
Now im sure,
All is but HISTORY.
But how i wish there was CHEMISTRY.
its okay now.
It was so GP.
It was so MATh.
I felt so PHY.
Definitely not SIC,
But happy
Thanks so much for everything,
I will rmbr them.
BIO.
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Gum 10/13/2006 09:30:00 pm
I think i have to understand that not everyone is perfect.
I think i have to understand that some people just do things their way and not everyone thinks the same way as me.
I think i have to understand that getting irritated with people is getting me nowhere.
I think i have to understand that i'm not perfect.
I think i have to understand not everything i do is right.
I think i have to understand that i ought to bear with people.
I think i have to understand that people may think of me as another person rather than who i think i am.
I think i have to understand that not everyone have the same ideals.
I think i have to understand that i think too much and have too much to understand.
Gum 10/09/2006 06:45:00 pm
Aftermath After MAF
o.O
Yest or rather todae slept at 2 am den woke up at 1145, slept at 1345 and woke up at 1645. i practically slept the whole dae awae.
thats was the aftermath after maf.
i dunno leh. i just kept thinkin abt stuff that i just din wanna do work at all. i guess im turning into more an more of an escapist. the old times, the ppl, and Selenium. i felt lost once more. a weird feelin inside thats a milder version of how i felt after steppin down. i rmbr last time i just lied on the bed and kept thinkin and thinkin and feelin horrible inside me. even had to see doc and get MC cos of being too tired and sad.
How worthy is worth?
Some mistakes are worth making. Some sacrifices are worth making. Some friends are worth making. Somethings are just worth doing all over again even if you know its gg to hurt you once more.
I realli miss those daes. That period of time. Even though i knew i would feel weird and lost for perhaps a few months, but the joy, the smiles it brings is just too irresistable.
Worth doing it again? definitely. i didnt regret and will not regret it.
i wish i could feel that wae again. it was the explosion in my life.
Gum 10/08/2006 06:49:00 pm
i hope my daughter likes my children's dae present! HAHA altho its like lame but can play with the toy! im so proud of the girl i drew cos its realli so so so cute~!
Gum 10/08/2006 01:55:00 am
OMG MAAAFFFF!!!
MAF WAS JUST GREAT!
haha altho i might have thot that the juniors could have done a little no so good as we did (okay im biased) but in the end, it was just GREAT.
i guess thats wat MAF is all abt. its not realli abt how nice the decor is, how carefully planned the program is or watever, [altho they DO matter], but in the end it all boils down to the mood, the atmosphere, the ppl. even if PSI mabbe 200, i'm sure the crowd, the familiar faces, your frens ard you will make MAF a wonderful exp.
At first i was qt sian, in sch myself and witnessing SOMETHING and also how pressed for time the jnrs were. den went to eat w guys + edwin and went back to sch. most of the time i was hanging ard 32nd-ers cos my class was qt sian and playing erhem "cuts". 32nd was just SIAO DIAO. HAHA seriousli like we zi high all the wae and the whole central plaza i think onli we were cheering abt watever comes out in the MAF video. Thats wat made it fun for me. We just cannot stop being proud of ourselves as council and just cannot stop being enthusiastic abt some random stuff too! thats wat makes a councillor special. every yr u come back hwa chong for events like MAF and u noe how much hard work the ppl have put in just for you.
For me, this yr was esp good cos last yr i din realli enjoy maf but was busi man-ing the welco stall throughout... though it was fun too but my MAF's not MAF. finalli this yr i can exp it like how i should. =D when i was waiting in the central plaza and seeing the grand light up i didnt know why but i felt so nervous and excited and when eveything just lit up, WOW! i felt the jnrs hard work and sincerity somehow. COOOL sia. and den durin street market i got a bit sian diao cos no one to walk w. hais i din wanna spoil my nite by exposing myself to potential heart-hurtin factors and potential makin-me-weird kinda stuff so i just siamed and siamed and siamed _____. later i went to the teahouse and see my daughter and helped to sell things abit. actualli im qt sad at how our sales exec stuff are being done now and the state of our stuff. its like all messed up like last yr but i guess thats inevitable lah.
I'm grateful for the jnrs hard work and im glad to sae tt im proud to be part of the team that built MAF2005 w our own hands.
=)
Im rather high now im qt sad it was over soooo FAST!! the ending was too abrupt. Like all song and dance and cheer so hyped up den suddenli end liao i felt qt lost though. thats why mabbe i looked like im sad or something to some frens. but im realli fun, just tired cos long time no so fun liao! DESTRESSED! now my throst hurts a bit though. shout too much le!
Gum 10/08/2006 12:08:00 am
hais... i feel sad leh. todae was in the staff room to get and minus some bio marks den saw mr rem there. and he asked me wat happened to me and indicated that he tot i shld be getting an A or B. den mrs cheng also. she said something like wat happened to you kaihim i tot last time u did veri well or something in that context. hmm.. not realli did well for bio b4 but definitely better. :( i sorta feel i dui bu qi the tchrs. esp mr rem. hais... i shld hv gotten that B.
At least now that this EBAE 5 (typo last time round, is 5 not 6) has woken me up and im REALLY lackin prac.
:( ---> :)
But nonetheless i feel much better todae liao. i just wan the sad feeling to seep deep into and within me for a while but i know i'll be fine.
Go Gum!
Gum 10/04/2006 11:18:00 pm
Sometimes i just feel like breakin down.
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At MYSELF.
EBAE 6
like wanna sell stuff online liddat.
YUCKS
Gum 10/03/2006 10:56:00 pm
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Yup, that says it all. I have gotten an E grade for physics. So lousy the newspaper also not interested in this piece of no explosive pt news liao.
HAHA.
Actualli i kinda expected it lah. i mean, what more can u expect when u screwed up your MCQ. And how i dun use screwed up often shows how screwed up it was lah. And paper 3 disaster. But i was still hoping mah. At least a mid D? nope. It was an E. But i DESERVED IT.
Seriousli my physics is such a funni thing. U know, i enjoy physics lessons (ok mabbe cos mr rem is nice) but the results just fluctuate so much! unbelievable at times. I should get to take a photo w Mr Chow for the most loyal physics student to have my grades OSCILLATE and vary that much. I have never been consistently graded until now when both my overall and Prelims are EEEE grade. 
Haiyooo gum ah gum... when can u ever learn your lesson?!??!
I think it all started w the MCQ. cos i din prac, i was nervous and caused much fear for paper two also. Den, i was so pressurised to do well for paper three that i spent so much time on each part trying to make it perfect. And there it went. My A. My B. My C. Not even my D. HAHA.
But im still fine, onli at first sad and stone den later okay liao. not as bad lah.
Life goes on, A levels goes on. hums.
Gum 10/02/2006 10:33:00 pm
Happy Children's Day!!!
Wish that all children in the world enjoy this special day just for us kids! HAHA though we aren't realli, kids.
It feels great to sometimes see ppl behaving like kids. Innocence is beauty.
Childhood is so wonderful, isn't it?
Gum 10/01/2006 02:24:00 pm
Hurt By A Bee
Gum, who had not been the totally satisfied with his results so far, was dealt another blow last friday. A much more serious one.
He was attacked by a BEE when he was returned his papers for the Chemistry.
"I was expecting at least a high B," he told us "and hoping for a kind A from the teachers."
"Looks like they aren't that kind after all? They sent a BEE to sting me!"
"No lah, I was just joking. I think I deserve what i had."
Tomorrow, Gum will be getting back his Physics and Chem S papers. Will the miracle appear tomorrow? Or will he get stung by a BEE again?
Gum said," Haha i would enjoy getting stung by a BEE for physics. That would not be a painful sting but a pleasant and welcomed one."
He went on to tell us that he would be just hopeful of a C to D grade.
Gum 10/01/2006 02:09:00 pm
