Lotsa feelings, Lotsa things to sae.

Hmm.. realli got qt a lot of changes in my thots and emotions these few weeks and esp these few daes. its like a lot of thinkin gg thru my mine.

Usual stuff like scholarships unis and career things are gettin better alr. now i know roughli wat im gg for and agarly know wat to expect lor. todae had a loong tok w my dad. it realli felt great. i mean i haven been veri close to my family all these while. ever since like abt sec 2 onwards, when GH, testosterone, LH, FSH and such controlled much of me and it seemed like frens were the MOST IMPT things in life den. of cos not forgettin grades. i kinda drifted apart from my family liao. i become badder to my bro, didnt qt like my sis at times, din have topics to tok abt w my dad. so onli mabbe my mum was the onli one i still toked to but it was still not much. all those hormones baddened my temper, n realli at home they didnt seem to care much. i guess thats all they sae abt growin up. BUT now i know ive grown. zeh i know u'll read this yah altho u wld deny me in my face, i sincereli feel ive matured. esp this yr.

Council

Council has help me veri much too. i learnt how to responsible, and i opened up more, and to appreciate others. all the ppl who are just your frens, your classmates, and u see how much they put into this 32nd. just a CCA, and yet they plan so much, think abt it day and nite, so much time and sweat. not that other CCAs like track DUN sweat, but we are a diff kind. some CCA that u cant just GO for it and get results, nor can u just sit in front of the com and get things settled. wat we do, u can onli undetstd if ya part of us. Amazing CCA - i nv regretted joining at all.

i recall the earli times when i was just like runnin for council myself. ppl sae im courageous, well i wld sae i was daring. i din know how to go abt doin it! my idea to make a vid died when the councillors told me my idea cannot at a veri late time. luckili i nv did much yet! wa i was so sad but i turned out to save me instead. in the end i just tried to funni and it was like wooooooo, either i succeed, or i sae goodbye. just a fine line in btwn but luckili, i pulled thru. actualli i wld sae that that was one of my proudest and greatest achievements of all times. i alwaes liked to be funni and make ppl ard me =), and by gg on stage alone and just tokin nonstop for like 5 mins, just tokin crap, i alr was like sososososo happi! i managed to make an auditorium of apollo laugh, and the applause i get for just being an entertainer was coool!! i cld see the love ppl had for me even. well mabbe for my jokes HAHA. i felt so proud of myself like i became instantli "famous" and just like that, i got into council. with nothing done and proven that im suitable to be one. And I'm trueli greatful to the apollo-ians support. if not for them, i guess my life wld have been entireli different!! thx sooo much for the chance.

And once i got into council, i was veri laxed and didnt be enthu at all. i was still qt introverted and eleco camp, i also veri quiet. thus, when i ran for fac head, i din get it. was rather depressin at that time, but again it turned out to be a good thing. actualli if fac head elections were like the 33rd elected by students, i wld have gotten it most prob (no offense to anione) But Welco was the place to be for me. i wldnot have survived in SnR seriously, not that theyre a bunch of ppl hard to get along with, but im just not that kinda person. i dun fit it. but in WElCO, its a totalli diff story, esp when the majority of the welco-ians are such nice ppl!! made realli close n nice frens!!!

i think im realli too naggy liao. siao i digress so much! haha alwaes liddat one once i start i cannot stop!

The whole journey is realli great! the Welfare room, the sales execs, the Teachers' Dae prog, the MAF fountain, the OH pizza selling and goodie bag packin, the prom, the O1 games, the CNYs, the eleco camps, the formals, informals, GMs, cheerin sessions, Welfare week, the slackin time in the welfear room or council room, my pigeon hole, the council room and welfare room itself, my boxes of stocks and foods!!!!, the frens, the tchrs, the spirit, the times, the memories, the demerit pts, the cleanin ups, the dances, songs cheers, the council cheer, batch dance, council dance, council song, batch song.... etc etc. wonderful things to rmbr.

i shall stop,or it'll take infinity time.

oh INFINITY reminds me! haha i got 6/20 for the third chem s test, thus i have improved 100 % this time! hahahahhahaha!

whr was i? (scroll back) matured hah? hmm.. yah i hv been thinkin sooo much these months that i seriousli matured a lot. i wanna be an integrity-man, i wanna earn $$ to support my family and give my parents a good time. i wanna do things my wae!

Anw frens out there rmbr to love your family! theres no one that loves u as much as ya famili members do, they alwaes care abt u and think of you. no matter wat they sae or do. Thus, show your love and show that u care. it may be hard to do so, but little things are those that count! dun feel awkward lah, just do it man! all these while, things that happened at home or outside has led me to think this wae, so i hpoe i can influence ppl ard me tooo.

Mango, durian and rambutan

i was also veri irritated by some things recently. a years worth of councilling has made me despise slackers and oh ppl, PLS BE RESPONSIBLE AND DO WAT U OUGHT TO DO LAH! some ppl are just not doing wat they ought to. just like this person i shall call him/her mango. mango is supposed to do certain stuff and it irritated me that mango's not doing it. or doing it but not doing it well. mango's a nice fruit that i can eat, but mango being lazy and "slackin" is just wrong for a great fruit like mango. ppl alwaes sae bad things abt durian and wat durian has not performed. well, durian definiteli does not have a great look, and it looks like it can hurt but deep inside, the fragrance is there, and durian delivers! we enjoy our daes and take durians for granted, just because durian does not appear all yr round and its rare to see durian ard, but its there for us. mango, on the other hand, shld be at least as tasti as durian but mango isnt at all. esp nowadaes gum feels like gum can stick to the job better than mangoes. definitely. mango is a nice fruit ive said but mango's just have not ripened yet. both mango and durian do not read gums blog so they wun see but i hope mango ripen soon. i dun have the courage to approach the fruit itself tho and choose to ramble on here, cos im afraid i'll hurt little mango.

rambutan isnt that great too. rambutan alwaes like to niao durian but rambutan's also slackin from wat i can see. how ironic when rambutan's saeing durians smelly and harms the children when rambutans bring so mani ants that even bite.

Seven-seven

i love my class, i realli do, but nowadaes....

77 has brought me so well into this HC culture. being a dunmanian doesnt eqquip u w the essential survial skills, but my class has helped me a lot! =) the first three months was such a blast, all the gossips and snrs too, made it beautiful. the fun times, the lame times, the bridges, the class times. i recall how i was able to develop into such a playful cheerful "carefree" boy. i cld joke ard in class like for GP and PW. HAHA last time i lameli do things in class, like saying i wanna be a giraffe when ms gan asks us abt wat we want to be, jokin about titanic cant join choir cos its supposed to "cant sing (sink)", which yr did titanic sink? left ear or rite ear? and hiding behind the ohp and using a deep voice to immitate dunxiang while he was standing in front and doing actions cos he cldnt speak. the papers we passed ard in CT session to write abt each other. the CSP lectures HAHA.

those were fun times! budden as council came in, i began to drift apart from my class. or rather, as studies came into the picture, the class became more and more apart. mind u, im not saying that we shldnt studi, but mani times i get irritated when ppl do things just for practical reasons, for grades and such. its DISGUSTIN how ppl behave. Muggin's fine, overMUGGING = yucks! hypocrites are worse. ppl start to pon lessons, or become selfish and monopolise the tutorial sessions. pls lah, tutors are not for u onli, they're class tutors, not private tutors. =( its so saddening to see ppl do soooo much to get the grades. are grade so impt, wat abt frens, sch? i know its rather unfair that i feel this wae just becos i dun mug, but there's a threshld rite. dont go overboard lah! Hais.

esp nowadaes that the prelims are coming, im beginning to see how ppl do not care abt rules, pon lessons esp PE, mug so much they dun care abt others. who cares abt spending time w your "best" frens when our time tgt are running low? my exams more impt lah! u think i love my frens den can get 4 A's meh? yikes. im particularli disgusted when ppl dun care abt teacher dae. tchrs spend so much time on us, cant we just do a little something for them? even if they arent the best tchrs ard, even tho some slack, even tho some may teach in a wae u dun like, even tho some are sometimes irritating, they're still our tchrs. no joke being a tchr, u thikn becoming tchr veri ez issit? u nv know how much they have to do. u nv know they have to manage stress, family too. just ask u all do a bit, not veri guo4 fen4 rite?

utterly disappointed at times. but there's still hope. i hope.

after prelims, i'll start doing more things for the class like i tried to do when council's ending. i hope that'll bring some humanity back into the group of ppl whom i spend most time in HCI w. i'll organise things i promise. pls, come back 05s77. i love u ppl. i miss u ppl.

i was so afraid the last dae of sch was super lousi. luckili it was fine! ppl still stayed back to take photos instead of rushing off like they alwaes did. OH PLS SEND ME THE PHOTOS WHOEVER HAD THEM!!!! I was so worried mr yeow wld let us off earli and then my two yrs of 77-ing wld end like that. anticlimax sia. but it was fine lah. mr yeow is a nice tchr, i appreciate him. he's a tchr who cares at least and hes frenli too. i had a nice half hr taking photos and seeing ppl take photos =)

[im sorry if i have offended anione in watever wae, its just wat i trueli feel inside me.]

two yrs have just zooomed past, faster than ani other two yrs of my life! so much gained, so much learnt. and now i gotta mug. still zero chapters mugged. not much time to waste. yet i just spent TWO hours w this entry.

oh i believe that i believe in karma.

no matter which god u pray to, who u believe in, where in the world u are, the good alwaes get rewarded and even if the good dun get rewards, they are alr rewarded w the good heart they have.

Gum 8/26/2006 05:32:00 pm