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Home alone now, thus fell aslp (with food processing notes in hand) just now until my bro called me. HAHa. std one alwaes fall aslp. anw to keep me more awake i decided to come online.

Ydae went to Brightsparks Jobsfactory Wkshop in sch abt career and interview skills. Hmm.. this was wat i realli needed and although i nearli felt that i would regret showing my interest for this wkshop, i think i spent a nice dae. The facilitator was a frenli guy and ex-hwachongian scholar too. he taught us to find out things abt ourselves such as values, interests, skills and so on...

This made me realise how i actualli am deep inside me. frens close to me will know i alwaes sae and do things like helping ppl, trying to do good things and so on, but i discovered actualli I AM NOT THAT NOBLE AFTER ALL. i thought i din mind doing things that were not rewarding as long as i help those in need or do things w integrity. Until the part when i was looking at the top 5 values that is the most dominating inside me. i ticked so mani that i could fit them all in. Those abt Integrity and Truth, Having an impact on others blah blah blah were impt, but I couldnt cancel our those which involved being a professional, $$, or climbing up the ranks in a company. theres such a desire to be recognised, to do something "pro" and to make my famlily and frens proud, and to earn lots of $$ in me heart. i tot it wasnt impt, but it IS still in me.

Therefore, headache again lor. now, the teacher path doesnt look appealing at all. these few daes i hear so much abt EDB and businesses and these kinda companies scholarships that interest is growing. Now i see myself being part of a large compani and being so busi and meeting clients day in day out! Its cool, i get to meet ppl, $$$$$, and make it big somedae. But i worry. Do i hv wat it takes. i am not a veri competitive person, i am not business minded, i am not the kind who will do watever it takes to succeed. I can imagine me, such a kind soul,being bullied or backstabbed. Are there ppl in the business arena that are kind and honest and full of integrity and yet succeed!?

I dunno. i haven heard much as of now. Or mabbe thats the wrong impression i got. Mabbe not everyone needs to do that kinda competitive things.

But who noes? Just wait and see. mabbe i'll be the first one to succeed with just my sincerity and integrity.

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Anw back to the wkshop the interview skills part was rather useful and the practice session was rather tough! i was the first one to go lah and i din know wat to expect thus was nervous. HAHA but my grp was qt fun!!

At nite went to eat dinner with relatives and celebrate freds bdae. =)
Happy bdae Fred!

Gum 8/13/2006 02:49:00 pm